{God-sized Dreams} Waiting

I don't wait well. 

When I get an idea, I like to go with it. When we pick dates for a trip, I like to plan it. We were engaged for six months, and I would have been OK getting married a couple months earlier.

I've had a book idea for years. And I've written on it little bits at a time during those years. It's not long, like you may think a book should be after years. Well, OK, I sometimes think years should equate to many, many pages. But, really, it's the kind of book that will be best if it spans time.

To give it more time means to wait. It means holding on my God-sized dream longer so it can develop more thoroughly. It means writing little bits at a time for awhile longer while the story unfolds.

Last week Holley Gerth challenged us God-sized dreamers to share an experience that answers these questions: What’s one fear you’ve faced when it comes to your God-sized dream? And what’s the truth that’s bigger than that fear?

I'm not sure I'd would have labeled waiting as a fear. But I've been thinking about it lately and realized this: Often I don't like to wait because I'd rather be in control. Waiting means depending on someone else's schedule, which they probably don't have control over either. Waiting means soaking up the moment and not wishing for tomorrow. Waiting means that I'm not in control. Perhaps this book idea I've had and continue to develop is God's way of helping me learn to wait on his perfect timing.

The truth is God's timing is perfect. My idea can be even better if I wait on the ultimate giver and creator. 

I remain confident of this: I will see the goodness of the Lord in the land of the living. Wait for the Lord; be strong and take heart and wait for the Lord!

Psalm 27:14

Trust in the Lord, and do good; dwell in the land and befriend faithfulness. Delight yourself in the Lord, and he will give you the desires of your heart.

Psalm 37-3-4

I have this rough {rough!} draft of my book idea. I sent it to a stranger who is becoming a friend. She offered encouragement and truth. When I read her words on my computer screen, the idea that I needed to wait and develop and expand and build and tell more of a story was confirmed. I am thankful God works like that. He gives us assurance that we're doing the right thing and he's not finished yet. He whispers wait.
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